Aging

  Ageing ❤ 10/28/20

Ah yes child, growing up can be quite exciting but excitement will no longer exist. It goes away. Remember when all you wanted to do was grow up?
Well don’t bitch, oh yeah by the way we can curse now, that’s one good thing at least.

Time starts to noticeably speed up around the age of 12. You look back at old pictures and videos that you took of yourself and want to die more then you already do because that’s another thing you think about when you grow up, death darling.
When the fuck am I going to die? You want it to hurry up but some part of you still wants the excitement, the wonder, the happiness and wish for time to slow again.

But hold up, hold up, lemme be an adult real quick and lie to you, “Life gets better” no it doesn’t because people suck. It doesn’t get easier, you just get used to it. “Life is amazing, enjoy it while it lasts” Aka, you’re the happiest you’ll ever be, everything goes downhill from here so take it slow child.
Well maybe life is fun.. with some drugs that don’t let you get sad. Or I just went about life the wrong way and now I’m fucked.

Also you’re gonna get addicted to at least one thing, at least for a while. Whether it’s a drug, a food, a drink, sex.. a person.. Something is going to get you to think that you need it. You’re gonna think that it helps you in some way but in the long run it actually doesn’t.
But I recommend falling in love with music, it’ll help you I promise. Oh and you won’t believe in promises anymore either.

I’m not writing this for anyone or to anyone, I’m not even gonna say I am because this is just my mind, it’s not real, not any more real then anything else at least. I’m just writing this for my tutor. But if anyone young were to find this, I’m sorry you read this far. I’ll be gone but tell me how your life played out. I’ll see you when you kill yourself or maybe you’ll make it. But tell me eventually darling.