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When you close your eyes, what do you see?
Black? “Nothing” you could call it, if you wanted to I guess.

When there is only pitch black as your vision, do you see anything?
Do you see those little colors floating around but when you focus, there is really.. nothing?

I close my eyes and sharpen them, staring.. opening something while closed, begging to see.

Imagining that there’s something there but it’s just black.

Going back to memories that you forgot about, perhaps from a dream or just trying to remember what you need to forget.

The first time you saw your father strike your mother.
The first time you saw your mom fight back.
The first time he struck you.

The last time you were in his house.

Remebering the day you left, your reaction to the news that you were going to be able to get out of his clutch. The day it was no longer just a wish but a reality.

The videos you weren’t supposed to watch yet you did with your friends. And now you watch alone.

When you close your eyes, do you see what you want to?
Who’s voice narrates your thoughts?
Do you look like how you remember yourself once you can’t see yourself?

Are you recognizable?

Does she sound the same? When you try to capture their voice, is it hard?

Could your blackness pull up a exact replica of your favorite person? Is it a picture or a moment?
Do you have a favorite memory? Would you be able to rewind back to that time and replay everything that had happened, and remember what you were feeling to remember it as your favorite?

Do you need pitch black to see something?
Can you not sleep without that red color from the light when you close your eyes?
When you close your eyes is it the face that haunts you that you see? Is it the fact that they’re not coming back that hurts?
Is it because you’ll never get the version that you love of them back? Is it because the version that you made of them is better then the real one?

And when we’re ghosts… will we still see the same nothing when we close our eyes?
Or will we never open our eyes again when we can’t in this body?